April 24, 2017

Oh God! I feel so bad. I have 2 exams tomorrow and day after it. I have to do so many things. It feels overwhelming. I must go home and then I need to travel back. Few of the things I need to do: Sell my cycle Pay the dues Write the report Make ppt […]

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March 11, 2017 – Off to Hyderabad!

Well, I will be leaving in half an hour to the station. I am excited I am going back to the beautiful city of ‘Hyderabad’. I wish the train doesn’t delay much. Ali G made made me laugh and laugh yesterday. I don’t like Kristen Stewart but for once she really looked great on Stephen Colbert […]

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March 10, 2017 – Fiverr Fever!

I have slept so long that most of my wounds are healed. Me, Laptop and the dying room. This is my world. I was so obsessed yesterday to play on Bet365. Good that all routes are banned in India. But I wouldn’t settle. I put 500 in PokerBaazi and as reminiscent of good old days, […]

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March 8 – Sleepless night!

I could not sleep last night. I am still in a Zombie mode. Propanolol just before sleep time is a perfect medicine to keep you awake all night. My memory feels so dull. I can’t remember properly what happened yesterday. My brain functioning has degraded following Benzo and post Benzo medication. I fear I am irreversible […]

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March 7, 2017 -Calm and Serene!

I meditated for hours yesterday. “When the mind is pure, joy follows like a shadow” -Buddha. I was so calm and the whole world was at peace. Everything slowed down. There wasn’t that chaotic turbulence in the situations. I felt happy looking at trees and the pink, violet, yellow flowers. I wrote my Cloud exam. […]

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March 6, 2017 – Improving habits!

It’s a new day, I need to clean some old shit. Nitin talked with me and suggested me to focus on my health and figure out what I actually wanted to do in my life. He sounded right. I am just running a blind race rat. I need to pause and get myself together. I have started […]

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March 5, 2017

I drank so much yesterday night. I was drunk and talking with Lala ji. I was just praising and praising him. He kept telling all his history and how he has been running the canteen since 40 years. People from all over the world know him. I typed bullshit in depression online chat. Bharath called and said about Teja […]

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