It has been an year and 3 months since I am taking psychiatric medicines. I have been prescribed medicines ranging from Vitamin tablets to Anti-psychotics(Olanzapine, Lamotrigine, Risperidone), Beta blockers, Tricyclic antidepressants, Benzodiazepines, SSRIs, Atypical antidepressant, smart drugs, anxiolytics, and I am sure I missed a bunch. Medicines have hit me with innumerable side effects. However, […]Read more "March 30, 2017 – Quitting all Psychiatric medicines!"
Yesterday I woke up at around 11 or 12. I was determined to take LSA. I washed the seeds and munched them. I took nearly 500 seeds. I remember it was close to 1’o clock and when I ate it all, I had a terrible nauseatic feeling and was just cursing myself for eating those […]Read more "March 26,2017"
Hi, all. Long time since I last wrote. I started yesterday with feelings of insecurity and grief. Someone stole my wallet and mobile. I take things for granted. Now I realize how dear my wallet was and how inseparable my phone was. I had not slept well but I decided to go ahead with my […]Read more "March 24, 2017 – My first experience with Psychedelics"
Gambling is like a drug addiction. You won’t stop until your life’s crushed. I must not touch such things. My holidays are coming to an end. I am hardly present at home and mostly on computer. This is a shame! Dk is a big runt. He just says things, can’t get things done. You just […]Read more "March 18,2017- Tired!"
I am so happy at home. Playing poker and eating well. There is not much I am doing. All day long it’s being poker. I have made 1200 out of 500 rs. A great feat! Meanwhile, Federer is playing at alien-class. I have not seen him so energetic since his prime old days. He has transformed […]Read more "March 16,2017 – Poker!!"
I am doing good. Yesterday, I went to house top and climbed the water tank. Gentle breeze and mild-cold weather made up a beautiful environment. I meditated for about 30 minutes on the tank top. The experience has been elevating. I could more easily shift to calmness and could remain more balanced during the entire meditation. […]Read more "March 15, 2017 – Feeling good!"
I don’t want to write this but then I am going to. I was drinking from 2 pm till 11:00 pm at Naveen’s place. Oh god! It felt so bad. At first I was the most quite among the four. Soon after 2 pegs it was me who was the center of attention. What the […]Read more "March 14,2017 – Drunk to the core!"